Back and forth

I'm feeling weird today. Lily is not doing well but I haven't been able to talk to her. I want to involve more planes in my life. I'm feeling a bit stunted right now. The dreams are continuing and just not making me feel good. I'm not doing nearly as much school as I should be and I'm not sure what is my real truth right now. I don't think I'm feeling depressed. I'm just feeling a bit lost, confused and isolated. I think there is some difference.

I'm kind of feeling like I need to get something out but it's still a little too far down. I'm thinkingit might come in a few hours when everyone else in my world is sleeping.