Brevity

I feel like I;ve been neglectful. I have had so little spare time or even time to myself I've just not been around the internet in general very much at all. I think that even my email is only getting checked like 4 times a day which is really unusual in my world.

We are really busy with finishing things up (songs to play at the service, making the guestbook) but things are sorted more or less. We ended things for the day early today because I was tied, physically and emotionally, and just needed some time alone. Unlike my sister who has family staying with her and a kid, I have the priviledge to do that at my flat and I have done that this evening.

I also had Miranda over and Titania was around. Plus, with some difficulty, I spoke with the Artist and told him. He's trying to get Saturday off work to come to the service. I told him he wasn't obligated but he wanted to come.

Finally I think I pinpointed a reason why I'm not as distressed as others and that's because I am not really realizing what is happening becasue I am used to not seeing my Dad becasue I've been away. I think the service will be a turning point as will cleaning out his apartment early next week. And I'm sure over the next month or two it'll be more real as I have moments and issues where I'd talk to him or be with him and I won't be able to.

I'm going to go watch some CSI to make me fall asleep.