Sex and night

I really should be sleeping but I feel energized. I've had two orgasms in the last hour and I just felt like declaring how much I enjoy things about sex. Sexual trivia, sexual science, sex facts and sexual history, sex related film and books. I'm not talking explicitness or porn or whatever. Just things about sex. And talking about it. I really like to talk about sex - or elements of it. conversations about lube or positions or whatever. I really enjoy those conversations but I'm only occasionally indulged.

I thought for a bit that this interest may have something to do with me not currently having any actual sex but I don't think it's true becsaue even when I was coupled and getting it I still loved the other aspects. I have several sexual memories from my childhood and many that reveal that I didn't really understand the actual process of sex but that I was still interested. I would be itnerested in talkign about them but people can get really creeped out by that sort of thing.

And part of it is discovering things I don't know or other ways of seeing things. I also think that curiosity is present in many of my other interests, but sex is something that I don't get to talk excitedly about too often. I have been lightly exploring some different fantasies recently in terms of what they focus on and who they involve.

I have decided that the only type of casual sex type relationship I'd be interested in is with a female friend. It wouldn't have to be a really close friend but it could be. On the otherside I have really specific sexual needs I'd have a hard time going without in a boyfriend - particularly relating to openness, playfulness and experimentation.

And I really want to talk to the boy at virgin. He had very neat and purposfully done hair- but not in a trendy way. I feel like yesterday I made it sound like he wasn't hot. He wasn't typically indie/dishevelled hot, but he was cute. He was wearing black nail polish. I tend to assume guys who wear nail polish are gay or coupled but still cool as friends. I don't remember much else. I was told his name but I forget other than it starts with a "C" and I don't think it was a good name (I have issues with names but not a deal-breaking thing at all). I also really liked his voice. I'm not sure how but I remember liking it. I should have made eye contact because I totally avoided it even when I was talking to him. I smiled though.

ok, I've gone on about stuff enough. I really need to go to sleep because this sleeping pattern I'm developing is not at all good.