slowly but surely

The paper is half done and the rest is all happily planned out. I am taking a salad break. I actually feel pretty good about it only becasue it'll be done in a few hours and it's looking quite good right now. And I'm kind of doing it more in advance than I would have done so it's ok. At least it feels that way.

The weather is beautiful today. Sun, a few coulds, a slight breeze. But in my room it's fucking freezing. granted, I'm hardly wearing any clothes but I'd like to have my window open to at least get some freash air but it's bloody cold. I actually have a fleece blanket wrapped around me.

Is it delusional of me to think that I should have a life like this one that is so free of responsibility other than making sure I have money to feed myself and pay bills and that I write my papers on time and in a good way? I mean it's not like I want to loaf around jobless for the rest of my life, just until my degree is finished. I also have no problem working over the summer I just don't want to continue while I'm in school. I think that's a big part of not wanting to go home. Home is responsibility and all I want right now is to spend time with my friends, my cat, watch films and go to school.

I should do some math and see how little I can work to still support myself. But first! the paper.