Emotions

From my second conversation with Stripedcoat yesterday I read all the archives on the slash threads at the BUST archives. It tended to be focused on Harry Potter (which I have never been interested in) and CSI (which I love!) but none of it really got me interested enough to read any actual slash. I've seen other types of slash on the sites where I read lots of non-slash sex writing but never really got interested in it.

I think one of the things that bothers me about it is that it is said to be started by het women for other het women. I guess I understand why that would be a positive but it kind of bothers me because it assumes that het women must all kind of be into the same thing. Now I know that's not the intention but when it's said in the way that's how I feel and that irritates me. It's like porn for women that is way more focused on plot and has tender and romantic sex. I see how that might be more ok for women who might now be super comfortable with porn but it's not great for all women.

I mean I honestly don't read erotica (a word I tend to dislike) for the plot or tension in between characters. I mean it has to be well written but I want sex. If I wanted a good plot I'd go read a novel. Oh, but one thing I hate is when sexual myths are re-inforced in porn of any sort. It really makes me not want to keep reading. And crying because a climax was so good doesn't work for me. Stories classified as "Romance" do not do it either.

I need it to be smart but I need it to get me off. I'm a very practical girl in some ways. Ok, I was talking about slash. Maybe when I have my month to piss around and do whatever I want in June I will read a CSI one and see what it is first hand because I'm not one to criticize it without knowing. And I'm not criticizing it as a genre, I just don't like assumptions. Also, I should note that what I like in porn doesn't always match what I likfe in my life. (If I had a sexlife where I wasn't the only one participating that is.)

On a not too related note, yesterday when Lily and I were out shopping and I told her about Stripedcoat she ws trying to figure why he always went for me. She was listing the women in our little circle of friends and when she said "Dakota" she said she was a lesbian and they were best friends so it wouldn't happen. I kind of agreed because it wasn't my place to say anything, but that wasn't in line with my conversations with Dakota on Saturday. She said to me clearly she was bi. That means she could lend to women but I didn't ask because it really didn't matter as we were just clarifying to eachother and were really drunk. She also said she had made out with Stripedcoat before. I now remember that we were holding hands for much of the night.

I'm feeling weird about going out tonight. Excited but like this is a time where I might not see people again and I may not have made many close friends in that lecture I had lots of fun and felt really comfortable. I mean the fact that I could walk into that lecture late is amazing to me. I'm going to take my camera out because I'm that kind of person. I hope it ends up being good and fun. I'm not really expecting otherwise though.